AnOtHeR DaY

~*Great is your faithfulness oh God-you wrestle with the sinner's heart-...your grace is enough*~

O.k. so it's time for another entry...i seem to work in spurts on this thing. but anyway...here goes.

Today during Sunday School I got a hot flash the top of my left foot. I was sitting next to Lance and I felt this warm flood on the top of my left foot. It felt like someone was pouring warm water on it. So i looked down...nothing there...and i was wearing sandels, so i could see my foot. Anywho...an hour later while leaving church i felt it again! then around 7:30 i felt it...and wouldn't you know it...i just felt one like 5 minutes ago. how weird/cool is that!? flippin sweet!

I don't know how many people have heard this before...but it's helped me out a lot. Have you ever gone somewhere and that specific place has a certain "atmosphere" to it. And just being in that atmosphere can cause you to have a certain proclivity to a certain sin? Well, i was thinking about this today. Where do thoughts come from? Specifically...where do "bad" thoughts come from? I mean,...i've caught myself thinking pretty nasty thoughts at times. Thoughts that seem so foreign and things i wouldn't think....WELL...I was thinking about "atmosphere" and that different elements and different people create a variety of "atmosphere". And it's very helpful to know what kind of atmosphere produces what kind of passions and emotions and junk like that.

Have you ever been to a stupid party before....like...the really stupid kind like...in someone's basement? and there's like poor lighting...girls dressed like they don't have parents...weird smells..."adult beverages"....and maybe even a section of the basement labeled the "pee corner"...gross...Well, just talking about it makes me not want to be there...but when someone actually IS there...what kind of things does that atmosphere tempt him/her to do?

WEll, you can use your imagination...ALL this to say...certain atmosphere's can be anywhere...it doesn't have to be in a basement during a party...It could be in your room when you go in it, no one else is in the house, and you feel depressed...It could be when you see a certain person and for no reason you put up a wall and forget what the word "grace" means...When your only around your friends, it's late, it's dark,...what do you feel/think? is it good? true? honorable? excellent? Wrong? Shady? rebellious?

And what kind of atmosphere do YOU CREATE?

~*It Little matters to my servant whether I send him to buy a few cash worth of things, or the most exspensive articles. In either case he looks to me for the money and brings me his purchases.*~   Hudson Taylor

So, I havn't written in this jawn for a while. I really don't think many people look at this thing anyway. But...one day i'll shut this down and just create my very own web page. sa-weeeT!

What's new in my life?

• I'm "seeing" this girl...her name is Andrea, and she's pretty sweet. actually, she's pretty and sweet. Things are going well so far. I'm thankful for that. I think we've known each other for like 4 months. So, i still don't know everything about her, but...do you really ever fully know someone? ("Every one is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody.") anywho, she's encouraging and fun to be with and likes to sing and create beauty and smells good. (o.k. that last one was silly...but true)
• I currently work for Campus Crusade for Christ. It's o.k. but i don't think it's my niche in ministry. Thus, i have applied for Grad school, a couple resident director positions, and a director of greek life position, and an activities director position. Grad school is a "no-go" due to the lack of knowledge of a certain test i had to take to get in. so, yay! that door is closed! I had one phone interview at a college for a resident director position, and i have a personal interview in a week from this very day at Lancaster Bible College. woot woot! (that's my first choice i think)...we'll see what God thinks.
• I am excited about moving (assuming i get a job and move). I think i will really like living alone. not that i don't like my roommates now or anything. but i've never lived alone before and i can see how it would be attractive for me to do. At least before i get married (wishful thinking?) i would like to have the freedom of living by my lonesome and enjoying the quiet when i want quiet, the loud when i want loud, the people over when i want people over...there's some other things i could list,... but let's not, and say i did. (i like that phrase).
• I've been learning that God is abounding in love, rich in mercy and slow to anger. and...he is good to all. This is so true at this point in my life. I feel like such a let-down...a huge dissappointment, really down on myself because of my selfishness and sin in general (and specific). I know my heart...and it wants to please God...but how come emotions and passions are stronger than my hearts desires sometimes? Anywho, I've been learning a lot about forgiveness and Grace and God's patience with me. more to say about this...but to ______ to write it all down....bah.

• Enough about all that...I missed a dentist appointment yesterday, and i feel like a bad person, but i think they're o.k. about it....i apologized. i think that's what they want. They don't want excuses...they just want you to admit you did something wrong and to say you're sorry...and mean it. yup. anywho...

blessings errr-body!

Hello anyone who reads this...

The wind outside is moving at quite a furious pace! It's making the rain just slam up against the windows...i lut it. I tossed and turned a little last night. i think i think too much while on my bed. This can be a good or bad thing...cause thinking sometimes turns into worry. "And who can add an hour to their life by worrying?" (luke 12 or something). I've been keeping a prayer journal pretty consistantly, and that helps me visualize me casting my cares on Him who cares for me. ANywho, that was one of my new years resolution type deals...to be more of a man of prayer.

I was thinking about this...i think i heard it somewhere, but...it is a form of Arrogance and pride to NOT cast your cares on Jesus. Because when you have a whole bunch of stuff on your heart/mind...and you say to yourself..."oh man, i can't handle this"....you are right...you can't handle it...that's why you've got to cast it! If you don't cast it...you're basically saying..."oh i have all this stuff on my plate, but i'm gonna just deal with it..." hmmm, pride? yeah. Sooooo....that should be a daily practice....casting.

I wrote a lot in my journal last night...many thoughts...mainly just observation thoughts about what's goin on around me...in my life. funny stuff...too bad you guys can't read that. lol.

Blessings!

True GAngSta 4 ReAL

What up ya'll...Christmast Conference was such a blast! Everyone from Bloomsburg that didn't go should feel jealous and then get over it and go next year!!

So...Conan the Barbarian is actually a barbarian. I didn't believe it until i actually saw the movie. But it's true. He totally rocked bodies all over the place in a  wreckless abandon against the sanctity of human lives.

IF you ever do want to see Conan..i recomend seeing it on T.V., because there are so many needless parts in the movie of ladies throwing themselves at Conan and they don't have much loin cloth on...(if you get my meaning)

on a lighter note....Bulbs. bulbs are light giving...you should all put them in your houses and use them to see things...like books...pictures...where you put your shoes....food in the kitchen...

bulbs....thanks thomas ;)